We're Not in OZ Anymore

Ahh.. Wishes...With Thanksgiving tomorrow, I wanted to return to my roots.  The beautiful group of Jamie's wishes that started it all.. It showed me the door to the Emerald City....MY VOICE!

If you look back through the history of this blog, you will see I have not written here since March when I moved over to Big Girl Bombshell.  My baby. My vision in the making..I have joined in on the wishes several times from over there but it is just not the same.

So today, What I wish to invite in...is the publishing of my book.  You see, since March I have been on a wild journey of healing and miracles.  Everything I wished for..for so long...is coming true.  I fell in love with me AND I have had tiny miracles every day that have led me to BELIEVE.. It is ALWAYS the magic of the Ruby Red Slippers that leads the way.

The biggest wish...the biggest dream..was to find that voice that could inspire and motivate others to start living their potential.  THAT is what wishcasting gave me...The belief that EVERYTHING is possible.  So today, I wish to invite in the respect, honor and BELIEF that as long as I keep the wonderment of being YOUNG IN HEART that my big dreams of seeing others discover and live up to their own potential through my example (or something better) will come true.. You just have to BELIEVE!

JAMIE and ALL who WISH.......ARE A CLEAR EXAMPLE of that MAGIC!

Happy Thanksgiving to the wonderful group of wishers!  Utmost Gratitude for those that continue to dream and find their somewhere over the rainbow!   The MAGIC IS inside you!

It's Tuesday morning.  Little one is home sick but as the universe sometimes does, I needed the space to write. Still, I do not allow myself the luxury of saying NO to my responsibilities unless another needs me.  And sometimes, that is what needs to be done to get through life.  But as I anticipate what is going on for me, I thought I would declare my own Wish for the upcoming wishcasting. What behavior do you wish to change? And how do you wish to change it?

So this was just a test of just how powerful wish casting is.  As Jamie says, You can be the maker of magic AND a tender of wishes!  So many of us, find that the questions asked are certainly directly related to where we are in our life!   It's that easy.  It's that simple but more than that it's that POWER-FULL!  

What do you wish to take a break from?

I wish to take a break from my behaviors that are no longer healthy for me! I wish to take a break from the smoke screens and sugar laden masks I use to keep my existence invisible!  I wish to take a break from the fight or flight stress filled lifestyle I have been trying to run away from for years!  I wish to take a break from the unhealthy lies I use to convince myself that I am unimportant.  I wish to take a break from all the old survival skills that have become my patterns of existence and just LIVE!  I wish to take a break from my old life and create a new, healthy life where I can breathe and fill my body with love and health and feel the good!  I wish to take a break from body hate and anger.  

I just wish to take a break!!!!!!!

I watched the movie Precious the other night! What a wonderful movie! Inspiring!

The most important thing I got from the movie (and the book I am currently reading -- Writing to Change the World - is that WRITING!   Writing and creative endeavors are truly what can change our world.  Not being in Oz anymore is about moving forward.  Finding ourselves...Trusting ourselves... Writing, drawing, wishing...it all moves us forward toward the change.  Changes that happen when we aren't looking! 

Every girl is precious!  Honor that....as you get older remember and honor the spirit of the little girl within!

Wednesday Wishes with Jamie

Short, Simple and to the POINT

Oh my wonderful friend, the scarecrow.  He is teaching me so much!  I am at a point that it is time to release all my old patterns, particularly those that held me back.  What I need to learn.  I spent most of my life being the teacher, the smart one, the one who believed, like Dorothy, that there is magic.  Believing that if you come with me and I help you then my own agenda of being "fixed" would miraculously occur in the process.  But, what I did not see was that the more I tried to help others, the more I lost me.  It became all about them.  Their successes and their failures became my own. 
Part of admitting that we have a problem comes with surrender.  Yes, that is a little further down the Yellow Brick Road, but all the same I am here.  Being Dorothy, at this stage, is no longer working for me.  It is time to let go of the Kansas mentality and move on to bigger and better things.  It is time to look at each brick closely.  It is time to allow my friends, such as the Scarecrow, to show me my path and to encourage me to take on the dark forest whole - heartedly. 
The Scarecrow anthem is If I only had a Brain..............Well, I have hidden for years behind that brain statement.  I do have a brain and it's time to fill it with new knowledge and new actions.  No more resting on my laurels of how smart I am.  It's time to dance a little and time to learn!

What is FEAR?  I have often heard that FEAR is false evidence appearing real.  Think about the Cowardly Lion. He was afraid of his own tail.  As I grow older and continue on this journey, I see that a lot of my fears are not based on false evidence.  My fears were very real to me.  What I am seeing is that what often stifles my courage and motivation is the expectations I put on myself.  Perhaps, instead of false evidence it should be false expectations.  The expectation of being perfect.  Or the expectation of my definition of perfect? 

The realization and the wisdom that my life is perfect because of its flaws!  If things were truly perfect in the expectations I put on myself, would I really being living or just existing?  Some good food for thought to ponder.

Those flying monkeys could be, the support to fly me to surrender. Do I expect the flying monkeys to carry me away to the land of fear or just take me back to the tower  So, I will change that thought, that expectation.   Can wait to see where they take me~!

Jamie's Wish Prompt   Where Do You Wish to Make a Difference?  That is the simplest, yet most difficult question for me yet.  I want to make the difference in my own backyard! As I have traveled the journey on the Yellow Brick Road, way to many times, I am slowly getting it.  

As Dorothy stood on the platform with Glinda, she also stood their with the Scarecrow, the Tin Man, and the Cowardly Lion, proclaiming if I ever go looking for my heart's desire again, I won't look any further than my own backyard.  Because if it isn't there, I never really lost it to begin with! 

For years, I didn't quite understand that.  I stayed stuck in the magic of the Ruby Red Slippers that would help me to believe in myself.  Well, that was only a piece of the puzzle.   I spent so many years chasing that dream of believing in myself, yet still having behaviors and old patterns of looking for something outside myself to "cure" me.  I chased a dream and a belief, that if I could help other people, then somehow, miraculously I would change in the process.   

What I am learning now, is that I have to help me first, THEN I can help others. Taking care of everyone else's emotions first, leaves a hole, a void, that I keep searching to fill.   I fill my life up with friends like the Scarecrow, the Tin Man, the Cowardly Lion and it keeps me stuck in chasing that false hope of a "cure".  


The honest truth is there is no "cure".  No magic pill, or person, or diet that will fix it.  My Yellow Brick Road has a lot of potholes.  Instead of trying to continually fill those potholes, only keeps me focused on what caused the pothole.  I waste my time, energy, and money on putting a "patch" on the problem.  What if I started putting my energy into building a new road.  My addictive behavior has been to solve the problem instead of just saying YEP! It's there.  It will always be there! It is the road I struggled on for many years.  But, I don't have to struggle anymore.  I can focus on creating a new road.  One built on honesty and GOOD intentions.     


Instead of focusing on the HOLE, I think I will build a W into it, and focus on the WHOLE!
So, Where Do I want to make a Difference? Finding the W in my own backyard!  What about you?  What hole can you release to build a new road to WHOLE?